A Soul-Growing Week

I really didn't want to go, but I knew I would and that I would embrace it when the time came. A week on Kaua'i with officiating at a good friend's wedding occupying the juicy center of my time there. All of that sounds great and who wouldn't be up for it? Well, me, but not because I wasn't thrilled to be a part of the wedding or because I wasn't excited by the prospect of my very first trip to Hawai'i. Rather, because the timing just didn't feel right. I am jamming on re-launching my business and craving the kinds of connections I can make and activity I can be a part of in a big city - pretty much any big city! But the Universe was depositing me in a glorious home on a gorgeous island in the Pacific surrounded by wonderful people. Oh well!

So, of course, there's be present. Just be where I am without offering any resistance. No problem. Then, for me, there was a lot of we are here for a reason. What, pray tell, was the reason I was in a place that seemed to be the antithesis of what I have been saying I need - and want? What muscle to I have to grow or develop to move into a place of peace? The answer to these questions, in my experience, is virtually always something that is simple and custom-made for us, even if it is thematically something that is or could be for millions of us. This time, for me, it was to spend some real time in, as Abraham calls it, the receiving mode. To relish being pampered and to be pampered within a place which itself is full of the energy and Spirit of Kwan Yin, Divine Mother energy; nurturing, giving energy.

This has not ever been my forté. And as I blogged about last week while I was there, my body laid bare my inner, subconscious resistances to receiving all the gifts the Universe has for me. I know the origin of this issue of mine and have worked it from many angles for many years. But here, actually, was an opportunity to do so on a deeper level so I went for it. I relished being there and I relished the chance to strengthen my receiving muscle, knowing that all the positive clear intending I could ever do for anything I want is basically useless if I am not able to receive it.

By the end of my week's stay I was telling the bride and our host for the week what a soul-growing experience I had had. I expressed tremendous gratitude for the opportunity to have gotten over myself and to have moved into a place of receiving. I thanked them for giving so much so that I could learn and experience what I needed to learn and experience. I reflected on the ways in which so many gave so much to me during the week - be it a smile, taking me to see a waterfall, preparing meals, or any number of wonderful things that transpired.

I kind of didn't want to go because of timing, but I knew that was all ego stuff and, like I said, it was easy to go with the flow. What I didnt' know was how much going with the flow was going to add to my experience. Be present. We are here for a reason. Indeed.